Yesterday was Mr Hare's 60th birthday. His secretaries gave him a beautiful cake and card. I had booked a table for a very fancy restaurant and we were going with my BIL and SIL plus some friends.
I had to cancel it because last Tuesday my BIL and SIL'S daughter committed suicide. She was only 21 and leaves behind a partner and their 3 year old son. She had been struggling with mental illness and had obviously planned the whole thing.
The whole family is devastated and I can't put into words how dreadful it all is. My MIL who is 90 is beside herself because she was extremely close to Angharad and she is also worried about the effects on her son. She quite rightly thinks he with never recover from it. Like a lot of men, both my BIL and my husband have withdrawn into themselves and won't talk about it, whereas my MIL and SIL have found it helps to talk. Everyone is concerned about Dan ( Angharad's partner) and Carlton who is too young to understand. None of us have been able to sleep at night.
The funeral has been delayed because of the post mortem and later there will be an inquest. It's obvious that she was very badly let down by the mental health services but of course nothing will ever bring her back, so there is not much point dwelling on it.